My Journey to an Amicable Divorce: It Wasn’t Easy, But It Was Worth It

 What an amicable divorce looked like for us, in real life.

I didn’t wake up one morning and decide to end my marriage.
It happened slowly. Quietly. And with a lot of doubt.

By the time we admitted our relationship was over, we had already spent months trying to “hold it together” for the sake of our family. We weren’t arguing constantly. There was no dramatic breaking point. But we had grown apart, and pretending otherwise was starting to do more harm than good. I remember searching late one evening for reassurance that a separation didn’t have to turn hostile, and coming across guidance on how to achieve an amicable divorce. It was the first time the idea felt realistic.

I knew one thing early on: if we were going to separate, I wanted it to be respectful. I didn’t want a fight. I didn’t want to spend years locked in resentment. I wanted an amicable divorce, even though I wasn’t entirely sure what that actually looked like.

The Problem No One Prepares You For

Ending a marriage is emotional.
Trying to do it calmly can feel even harder.

Friends were supportive, but advice came with warnings.
“You’ll need to protect yourself.”
“It always gets messy.”
“Once lawyers are involved, everything changes.”

That scared me.

I didn’t want our separation to become a list of demands and counter-demands. We still needed to co-parent. We still needed to speak to each other. I didn’t want our children to feel like they were caught in the middle of a dispute they didn’t create.

The problem wasn’t deciding to separate.
The problem was figuring out how to do it without things escalating.

Why We Chose Mediation Instead of Court

We came across family mediation while looking for alternatives to court. At first, I was sceptical. I assumed mediation only worked for couples who already agreed on everything.

That wasn’t us.

We had questions about money.
We had worries about future arrangements.
We had emotions we hadn’t fully processed yet.

What appealed to me was the idea of having a neutral third person. Someone who wasn’t there to take sides. Someone who could keep conversations focused when emotions started to creep in.

Mediation felt like a way to talk things through without turning each discussion into a battle.

My First Experience of Divorce Mediation

Walking into the first mediation session was uncomfortable.
Not because of the mediator. But because everything felt very real.

What surprised me was how structured the process was. We weren’t expected to agree straight away. We weren’t rushed. We were encouraged to take things one step at a time.

The mediator didn’t tell us what to do.
They helped us talk.
They helped us listen.

There were moments when conversations paused. Moments when emotions ran high. And moments when progress felt slow. But the space felt safe. Controlled. Calm.

Over time, that made a difference.

Keeping Things Amicable Didn’t Mean Ignoring Emotions

One of the biggest myths I believed was that an amicable divorce meant suppressing feelings.

It doesn’t.

There were sessions where frustration surfaced. Where sadness did too. Mediation didn’t remove the emotional side of separation, but it helped stop those emotions from taking over decisions that would affect our future.

For us, it meant:

• Talking through finances without threats

• Discussing parenting arrangements without blaming

• Making decisions based on what felt fair, not what felt reactive

That didn’t make the process easy. But it made it manageable.

How Mediation Helped Us Focus on the Bigger Picture

We didn’t want our separation to define the rest of our lives.

Mediation helped us focus on:

• What mattered to our children, without making them the centre of conflict

• Practical arrangements that worked in real life, not just on paper

• Clear communication, even when we didn’t agree

It also helped us understand the legal framework without feeling overwhelmed. The courts actively encourage non-court dispute resolution where appropriate, and mediation is seen as a reasonable way to resolve issues without escalating conflict.

Knowing that helped reassure me that we weren’t taking a “soft option”. We were taking a considered one.

The Outcome Wasn’t Perfect - But It Was Ours

We didn’t agree on everything straight away.
We didn’t leave mediation feeling relieved every time.

But we reached agreements we both understood.
Agreements we both felt able to stick to.

That mattered.

Because a divorce doesn’t end when papers are signed. It continues in co-parenting conversations, financial planning, and everyday life. Using divorce mediation helped us lay foundations that felt workable, not forced.

What I Learned Along the Way

Looking back, there are a few things I wish I’d known sooner:

• Wanting an amicable separation is reasonable

• Disagreement doesn’t mean mediation has failed

• It can be helpful to get legal advice alongside mediation, without it becoming adversarial

• Protecting communication early can make a lasting difference

Mediation didn’t solve everything. But it stopped small issues from becoming bigger ones.

Where to Start If You’re Considering an Amicable Divorce

If you’re at the beginning of this process, feeling unsure but wanting to avoid unnecessary conflict, learning more about mediation can be a good place to start.

For a broader understanding of how family mediation fits into separation and divorce, Mediate UK’s complete guide to divorce mediation is also helpful.

Final Thought

If you are considering separation and want to understand your options in a calm, supported way, you can find more information and guidance at Mediate UK.

An amicable divorce doesn’t mean the relationship didn’t matter.
It means you’re choosing how it ends.

For me, mediation helped turn a painful decision into a respectful process. It wasn’t easy. But it was worth it.

The Spousal Maintenance Conversation We Avoided for Months - Until Mediation Helped Us Tackle It

Why talking about spousal maintenance feels so hard, and how mediation can help calm the conversation.

For months, we talked around the issue but never about it.

We discussed the children.
We discussed the house.
We even discussed who would keep the dog.

But when it came to spousal maintenance, the conversation stopped before it started.

Not because we didn’t care.
But because the emotions tied to money, fairness, and independence felt too raw to touch.

If you are avoiding this conversation too, you are not alone. Spousal maintenance is one of the most emotionally charged topics separating couples face. It mixes finances with identity, fear, and unspoken resentment. What changed everything for us was financial mediation, and the structure it gave to a conversation we simply couldn’t manage on our own.

Why Spousal Maintenance Feels So Hard to Talk About

Money discussions during separation are rarely just about numbers.

For us, spousal maintenance raised questions neither of us wanted to say out loud:

• Am I being unreasonable for asking?

• Does paying mean I’ve failed?

• How long is “long enough”?

• What does fair even look like now?

We found ourselves stuck in silence. Every attempt ended in defensiveness or frustration. Emails went unsent. Texts were rewritten and deleted.

This avoidance didn’t make the problem smaller. It made it heavier.

What Spousal Maintenance Actually Is (And Isn’t)

Before mediation, we realised we were arguing without the same understanding.

In England and Wales, spousal maintenance is a regular payment from one former partner to the other after separation or divorce. It is designed to help one person meet their reasonable needs where there is a clear income difference and no immediate way to bridge that gap.

It is not automatic.
It is not a punishment.
And it is not always for life.

The court looks at factors under section 25 of the Matrimonial Causes Act 1973, including income, earning capacity, length of the marriage, and future needs.

Mediate UK explains this clearly in their guide on how to apply for spousal maintenance in the UK, which helped us replace assumptions with facts.

The Turning Point: Choosing Financial Mediation

We didn’t choose financial mediation because we were getting on well.

We chose it because we weren’t.

What mediation offered was not answers, but structure. A neutral space. A trained mediator who could slow the conversation down and keep it focused.

Instead of debating positions, we explored:

• What each of us needed now

• What support might look like in the short term

• How independence could realistically be achieved over time

This shift mattered. It turned “you versus me” into a problem we could look at together.

How Mediation Changed the Conversation

The difference was immediate.

The mediator helped us:

• Break discussions into manageable topics

• Focus on needs rather than blame

• Talk about affordability without defensiveness

• Discuss time-limited spousal maintenance rather than open-ended fear

We were also encouraged to get legal advice alongside mediation. Not because mediation replaces legal input, but because it works better when both people understand the legal framework.

Fairness Looks Different From Each Side

One of the most helpful moments came when we realised we were using the same word, fairness, to mean very different things.

For one of us, fairness meant security while rebuilding a career.
For the other, it meant certainty and an end point.

Financial mediation gave space for both perspectives to exist without either being dismissed. We explored options such as:

• Stepped-down maintenance

• Review clauses

• Clear triggers for change

Nothing was imposed. Everything was discussed.

Practical Tips If You’re Facing This Conversation

If spousal maintenance feels like the elephant in the room for you, these steps can help:

1. Get clear on the facts

Understanding how spousal maintenance works in reduces fear and misinformation.

2. Separate emotions from structure

Your feelings matter, but decisions benefit from a calm framework.

3. Consider financial mediation early

Avoiding the topic rarely makes it easier later.

4. Be open to time-limited solutions

Maintenance does not have to be “forever” to be meaningful.

5. Get legal advice alongside mediation

It can be helpful to sense-check proposals before making them binding.

Why Mediation Helped Us Move Forward

We didn’t walk out of mediation feeling joyful.

But we did feel heard.
We felt understood.
And for the first time in months, we felt unstuck.

Our agreement reflected real life, not a court template. And when we later chose to make it legally binding, Mediate UK helped explain our options clearly and calmly.

Where to Start If You’re Thinking About Spousal Maintenance

If you are unsure whether spousal maintenance could apply to your situation, or whether financial mediation might help you have these discussions more calmly, it can be helpful to start with the basics.

This guide on ‘alimony’ in the UK explains how spousal maintenance works in England and Wales, what it is designed to do, and some of the common misunderstandings that cause worry or delay.

Final Thought

Avoiding difficult conversations does not mean you are getting things wrong. It means you care about the outcome and the impact on everyone involved.

Spousal maintenance is not only about money. It is closely tied to emotions, security, and future plans. With the right support, clear structure, and reliable information, it can be discussed in a way that feels fair, respectful, and manageable.

If you are unsure where to begin, visit Mediate UK to book a free 15-minute consultation. We can help you take that first step calmly and at a pace that works for you.

Do I Really Need to Complete a C100 Form? My Experience Before Applying to Court

If you’re separating and stuck in a disagreement about your child, you’ve probably seen the C100 Form mentioned everywhere.

I remember thinking: “Surely I don’t need to go straight to court just to sort this out?”

As it turns out, the answer isn’t straightforward. Before I applied, I learned what Form C100 actually does, why mediation kept coming up, and what the court really expects from parents first.

This is what I wish I’d known earlier.

What is the C100 Form?

The C100 Form is the application used in England and Wales when you ask the family court to make a decision about child arrangements.

That might include:

• Where a child lives

• Time spent with each parent

• Holidays, schooling, or specific parenting decisions

Submitting Form C100 means you are asking a judge to decide what should happen if you cannot agree yourselves.

Why most people can’t just apply to court

One thing that surprised me was learning that you usually can’t submit a C100 Form straight away.

Before the court will accept it, you are normally required to attend a Mediation Information and Assessment Meeting (MIAM).

This isn’t optional in most cases. It’s a legal requirement under the Children and Families Act 2014, unless a recognised exemption applies.

What is a MIAM and how does it link to Form C100?

A MIAM is a short, private meeting with a qualified family mediator. It’s designed to:

• Explain how mediation works

• Check whether mediation could be suitable

• Identify safety or safeguarding concerns

If mediation is not suitable, or if it does not go ahead, the mediator completes and signs the MIAM section of the C100 Form.

Without that signature (or a valid exemption), your application is likely to be rejected by the court.

Mediate UK explains how this works in plain English in their guide on completing a C100 Form.

My assumption: mediation wouldn’t help

I went into my MIAM expecting very little.

We weren’t communicating well. Emotions were high. I assumed we’d end up in court anyway.

What I didn’t expect was how different mediation felt compared to our own conversations.

What mediation actually looked like in practice

Mediation wasn’t about blaming anyone or reopening the past.

It was structured. Calm. Focused on our child.

The mediator helped us:

• Slow things down

• Keep discussions practical

• Separate parenting decisions from relationship issues

We didn’t agree on everything. But we agreed on enough to avoid court at that stage.

Do you always need to complete a C100 Form?

No, and this was the biggest takeaway for me.

You usually only need to complete Form C100 if:

• Mediation is unsuitable or breaks down

• One parent refuses to engage at all

• No agreement can be reached

If mediation leads to an agreement, there may be no need to apply to court.

That can save time, cost, and stress.

When can you skip a MIAM?

Some people are exempt from attending a MIAM before submitting a C100 Form, including situations involving:

• Evidence of domestic abuse

• Urgent safeguarding concerns

• Certain recent court applications

Even then, some parents still choose to attend a MIAM to understand their options before committing to court proceedings.

How courts view mediation

Family courts in England and Wales actively encourage parents to try resolving issues outside court where it is safe to do so.

Judges are increasingly critical of parents who refuse mediation without good reason.

That matters when decisions about children are being made.

Practical tips before filling in a C100 Form

From my experience, these steps helped:

• Read the form carefully, it’s detailed and mistakes can cause delays

• Attend a MIAM early, even if you’re unsure mediation will work

• Focus on your child’s needs, not past arguments

• Get legal information if helpful, alongside mediation

Mediate UK’s online resources explain each stage in plain English.

Why mediation made sense before court

Mediation didn’t solve everything.

But it reduced conflict.
It gave us more control.
And it kept decisions centred on our child rather than a courtroom timetable.

Even knowing court remained an option made mediation feel less pressured.

Where to start

If you’re unsure whether you really need to complete a C100 Form, taking time to understand your options can make a real difference. Starting with clear, practical information can help you decide whether court is necessary, or whether there are other ways to resolve things first.

Mediate UK offers straightforward guidance on the C100 Form, along with MIAMs and a free 15-minute consultation to talk through your situation. You can find out more and decide what feels right for you by visiting our website.

Final thought

Applying to court is a serious step, especially when children are involved.
Completing a C100 Form might be necessary in some cases, but it is rarely the only option.

Taking time to explore mediation first can be a calmer, more child-focused way to move forward.

If you’re unsure where to begin, Mediate UK can help you understand your choices before decisions are made for you.